Spinning and self sabotage

Ouch is all I can say about spinning last night I thought once I had warmed up then the pain would ease but it didn't but on the bright side I got through it and I worked hard I was delighted with myself.  After spinning I went home had a bite to eat and sat down drinking way too much wine..... why would I do that???!!! I'm sitting here at work now on a Tuesday morning with a bloody hangover!

I have to stop self sabotaging myself so today's mission is to figure out why I'm doing it and how the hell to stop myself.  Starting with some positive things about today;

 

1. my stiffness has eased some more not completely gone but a big improvement
2. I'm glad that I completed my first day of exercise this week
3. I'm happy that my son went off to creche happy today
4. I'm happy that my husband went off to work and has work in front of him for the next few weeks
5. I'm glad that its stopped raining and the sun has come out

Not so glad that I ate 5 jaffa cakes for breakfast but its done now so not going to beat myself up about that

Day 1 Again!!!

I joined a gym again a few weeks ago,  I'm not unfit but I'm no lean machine either, I am however a 168cm 74kg 36 year old woman with a body fat % of 32.5%.  I have been training on average once a week with a personal trainer and a friend for the past 2 years so my strength has improved hugely and I reckon that I may even have a 6 pack hiding in there somewhere so my mission now is to let it out or at least have a glimpse of its whereabouts. 

I hold all my weight around my stomach which is nice a flabby still after a pregnancy (almost 4 years ago)  I'm not bothered about what I weigh but I do want to get my body fat down to below 25% as soon as possible because id like to go on holiday later in the year and I don't want to be all body conscious.

I have suffered a little with mild depression lately well for a long while really I just didn't realise it.  I let everything get on top of me and needlessly stress about the small things so I am doing all i can at present to focus on the positive things in life.   to that end here are my plans for the coming week

• Listen to the headspace app on my phone for 10 minutes each day
• go to 3 spinning classes this week
• do 2 German Volume Training workouts this week 
• keep my food diary accurately
• create a meal plan including snacks so I eat every 3 hours
• Update my blog

I did my first GVT last friday and its 5pm on Monday now and I still cant walk, was great but boy did I suffer all weekend still tho no pain no gain as they say

the workout was 

10 X 10 50kg spuats superset with (went down to 45kg for last 3)

10 X 10 Goblet squats with 20kg kettlebell (went down to 16kg after first 3)

I got a savage pain in my right hand lower back doing the goblet squats so had to reduce and roll out between sets but I got through

Then

10X10 Lunge each leg 7.5kg dumbells

10X10 straight leg deadlift 35kg kettlebell

Plank x 30 seconds front and both sides.

Stretches 

Then wobbled out the door.

It was after this and the shocking DOMS that i decided this is for me this is whats going to make  me lean so lets see how this week pans out